Regret

I want the past, or at least what I thought it was

I want the comfort of a normal life

I want to say that through it all
I wasn't so blind or so full of strife

But so far every moment
I relive with shame
Knowing that it was in my grasp
To remove this blame

A horrid lie to tell yourself
That you were doing right
When in reality you had no idea
That actions would result in such blight

I was strong I lived it through
It was my normal every day
But you're not me, I see that now
And I'm sorry you had not say